Life and Death ~

one of my uncle had just passed away since yesterday ~~
and his news of passing away
came in really suddenly and shocking after hearing it
even though i known him for my whole life
but we didnt even chatted over 10 sentences,
maybe some of you will think that it is crazy
but its true
i didnt really chatted with any of my relatives
cos mostly when we chat
they are the one talking
i just moves my head,

today is the second day after he passed away
is a tiring day
tomoro need wake up early
to see the cremaltation(火葬）think i spell it wrongly
really felt that death is a reminder for all of us
that life is precious and need to treasure it
so,
try to anything u think is great b4 that day comes^^
even there is alot of obstacle on the way
so dun give up ya,
^^

and saturday need take the usm exam,
duno wat i need to study,
so thinking to just bring myself there,
haiz...
wish me luck la,

been taking 3 days straight leave le,
next 2 weeks cant take any leave le,
or else will give ppl kill liao
especially my mother!!!
haiz...

jjust write till here ba ~
night ~

girlish

lately, been listening to some negativity things bout me de
haha its good
but doesnt really like
and i need to accept it and change it ~~
cos as a boy
being too soft really a bit weird sometimes
so been changing ~~
but still girlish~~
and even got friend take it as a joke
haha really nothing de la...
so dun worry i will get angry or anything..

just that being girlly...
i also duno why..
maybe cos i grow up in a many girls environment?
maybe la..
haha ~~
so trying to be manly and fit a bit haha~~
starting to say something stupid again ~~
just write for fun ~~

Naughty ~

its been quite some time had i updated my blog ~~
haha now kinda nothing to do
so....
doing some update during my work ~~
haha ~~
i know most of you will say i am very bad
cos writing blog during my work.
but today really like nothing to do
and very free
i had been free since 11 something till now
haha
i told my mom i am very free at work
but she say go work la
got money take de wor
zzz
i also know got money take de la
but in someway , felt not really worth lo
doing nth and still get $,
just felt la...nothing much ~~
even though , every hour working is rm 4.5 la...
still can tahan a bit ba
haha

1 more important thing...
my phone lately sot sot ing le
most of the time cant receive network coverage
thinking of changing new phone le ~~
any nice suggestion ~~
haha ~~
so sienz...
need to suffer few more day ...

tmr i asked for holiday again ><
starting to feel i very naughty le la..
haha ~~
need to finish my things at mmu o ..
if not will let my sister nag again...
haiz...
so tmr go finish it ba ...
not really got anything to update le ba ~~
so wish everone all da best la ~~

hate this part right here ~~

today went out whole day ~~
certified my things le ~~
and got other things to do
so now trying to arrange my time
and take control of my own life...
not always being controlled by others

sometimes i really think that i very not mature...
easy to follow what people said...
and i got a quite serious problem...
which is very easy to nervous then will say something wrongly and badly...
haiz...
just happened today ~~
so hoping to cope this problem ^^
and suggestion?
haha ~~

and uni things got some not sure de..
so tmr need to settle it all a...
and its a must ...
not just say say
and this saturday, they having a cooking party wor..
haha
maybe it will be fun i guess
now i really need to do what i had promise to myself...

and hor...
i kinda felt sorry to myself
cos i didnt go da camp my teacher asked me to go...
saw one of my friends's blog
which he went there and came back
its like a good experience...
maybe i not strong enough to make my own decision..
always give ppl help me decide...
should learn to make responsibility on my own
not always push to others to help me do it..
heard a quote " 99% is own hard work , 1 % is luck"
i believe its true
as in really believe...
cos of my laziness..
made my result ><
haiz...
dun say la..
so must apply what i learnt on my normal basis
especially communication ~~
haha ~~
gambateh ba ~~

...

its been quite some time i have stopped updating my blog
so today wanna update it a little
and starting to think bout myself,
and analyse some of my habits,
they are really some bad 1
but lately i only notice
when i at home i will feel like dont wanna do any thing
but relax only.
maybe that is so-called 'comfort zone' ba~~
just got that kind of feeling..
and my phone credit being drain like water...

some of friends assume that my little xian is my gf...
omg...
duno y ~~~
really that cocok?
weird la
lately many ppl like assume i got gf...
sienz.....
zzzz

feeling tired and.....

lately have been feeling tired....
and have been hearing some free caunselling from alot of ppl
and my head's memory going to be full soon
now kinda stuck le..
haiz...
really duno what to do now...
sienz ...
maybe its my ego blocking me from listening to those things?
or is it i willingly doing this kind of things?
really need time to think of such things...
if not really hard to...
if always ego then hard lo..
haiz...
today take leave le..
my mom , my sisters all nagging at me...
sienz...
say no working a...
then no money lo...
but i think " no work mai no work lo, so what?"
"no work wont die for now de la..."
"haiz...duno y they worry about what also"

and lately they didnt think bout the "assuming" things le...
cos i got another matter let them ngam me...
haiz..
always listen to these kind of things...
really sienz la..
and hor... kinda like wanna die now...
haiz...
wanna cry also...
got such result ><
no die also no use a...
roar...
all mixed together...
kinda dizzy after reading these...
saying sorry if it made u dizzy ><
....
be happy la..
cheer up ^^

Girlfriend...

really duno why a...
my whole family really assumed i ad got gf le...
why is that a...
i didnt say anything or do anything odd a...
just as usual...
and then my mom really assumed i got le..
=.="
really duno what she thinking...
or maybe she really that wanting to drink the "tea"
duno leh...
zzz....
tell the truth...
even i wan also no ppl wants me de la...
so lo..
how will i got gf leh?
zzz
tell some of my best friends bout this..
they all just laughed...
some got swt...
cos didnt thought my family will like that...
haha....
see 1st ba...
maybe will really find one ba ~~
also duno o ~~
hehe ~~