the day ~..

today is a day i really tired and dono why thought of alot of things
i really think that i am a naughty boy..
during my high school days,
i ad think i very naughty...
now ... i more worse...
just direct gek my mom...
haha..
but really ma..
she always did things her way...
and for some reason
that day i really let out everything..
then just walk back home
just like that...
i really duno why i am capable of doing so..
then think back
i really did till too over..
and made my mom really really sad..
somehow ... i felt i wanted that..
but i kinda regret now..
duno why...

secondly, is about my gf...
just duno what gals always think that...
ad 4 months le..
she still thinks that i will hv someone here
instead of her...
why would i...
i ad tried to tel her that...
even though i know i am very stupid and wood all the time la
still i love her....
haiz...
duno she seeing this anot..
nvm la...
zzz

Assignments....~~

these 2 weeks really really really duno what to say...
2 person in a group ...
de assignment..
my groupmate is also my roomate...
he just say i duno how to do wor...
then what can i do?
haiz..
need to die dim the assignments all by myself
these week i really very angry with him lo..
but what can i do to avoid?
nth ...
just let him know i really not shuang lo..
haiz..
duno he got see dao anot..
because of the assignment..
i ad didn sleep in 2~3 days in a week
so in total is like 6 days didnt really sleep in 2 weeks..
omg..
broke my record ad...
haiz... ><
skipped quite some class this week..
this week is ad last week lecture week..
next week break..
then next next week final start...
omg..
not really studied..
gambateh la..
just come on to type something..
haha

haha

11/10 - 18/10

黃道宮位置： 約在天秤座16-25度

季 節： 初秋

元 素： 風

主宰行星： 金星

象征符號： 天秤

理解事物的方式： 思考、感官

　　天秤三的代表意象是「戲劇」。這段時期相當于人類一生中將近50歲的期間，這時的人們已經完全融入社會，通常也已功成名就或是功敗垂成，他們所要扮演的社會角色已大致抵定，接下來的任務就是如何扮演好這個角色了。為了達到這個目標，最重要的是去發展良好的表達能力，和足以成就大事的影響力及驅動力。當然，他們會希望以愉快且明智的方式來達成這些目標。

　　這段時期象征了充滿自信的中年人，努力在諸多的社會要求中尋求平衡點，以及發揮敏銳的判斷力和穩健的領導能力，并且憑著嗅覺感應生活脈動，來迎合整體大環境的未來潮流。

　　假如莎士比亞說得對，「整個世界是座大舞台」，那么天秤三則是這座舞台上的個中翹楚。他們的專長是把日常生活當做戲劇來演出，同時，這一周出生的人也非常清楚在職場生涯中形象的重要性，所以花了很多的揣摩時間來決定該以何種面貌示人。因此，世人常覺得他們有種超然、甚至冷酷的態度，雖然這只是人們的一種錯覺，有時仍會激怒周遭的眾人。其實，只因為他們對自己的要求嚴格，才讓他們看來好似冷血動物。事實上，天秤三是很有感情的。

　　固執的他們，不論對錯好壞都會經年累月地死守相同的發展方向。他們不計代價地勇往直前，誤解了靜下來休息的真義，因為他們相信坐而言不如起而行。他們甚至沒有經過事前的分析和規畫，只是憑著一時的直覺就一頭栽入貿然的行動當中，這樣魯莽的態度所招致的錯誤，將是相當嚴重的，而各式各樣的意外便可能因此發生了。

　　由于這一周出生的人具有優秀的領導才能，所以常常位居社會團體或公司企業的領導地位，然而又會犯下驕傲、自以為是的錯誤，忽略了這種行為對同事、員工及親人的影響。除此之外，當他們被迫面臨失敗時，將是作夢也想不到的情況，這份震驚簡直讓他們無法承受。所以就長遠來看，如果天秤三能培養謙遜與尊重他人的美德，將會過得更快樂。

　　天秤三如果碰上極大的挫折，可能會變得憤世嫉俗。此時只有愛的力量，才能讓這些歷盡滄桑、心生倦意的人重拾生氣，然而他們最難做到的正是感情的付出。事實上，向忠實的朋友或親人敞開心扉，對天秤三的心理健全很重要。不過，僅管心靈上的幫助或許是個顯而易見的解決辦法，可惜他們通常不愿接受。于是在他們潦倒失意時，愛他們的親朋好友就必須負起沉重的擔子，了解到只剩他們才能夠幫助他們的伙伴繼續邁步向前了。

　　天秤三的飽經世故或許是他們最大的優點。他們的知識、學問和經歷賦予了他們堅強的自信，當他們迎接挑戰時即能無所畏懼、樂在其中。所以几乎毫無例外地，天秤三都能在自己的專業領域中獨領風騷，成為某種專家，即使碰到了不熟悉的領域，也會本能地當成一種挑戰去學習，因為他們希望自己是個博學多聞、消息靈通的人。

　　此外，頑固如他們，卻愿意考慮任何一種想法的可行性，而不管這些想法有多離譜。他們可不是為了公平起見的關系，才將這些意見一一過濾，而是因為他們不愿放過任何增加知識的機會。對這一周出生的人而言，知識就是力量。

　　當他們的情人或配偶覺得受到忽略時，就表示他們私下的人際關系發生困難了。其實，他們本來就不太在乎其它人的感覺，即使遭人誤會的感受很痛苦，他們也依然不改作風，不想了解別人。若是對他們寄予厚望，期待他們能夠付出感情，他們會渾身不自在，不是退縮就是逃開。雖然他們自認是認真的人，很有責任感和道德觀，對于別人卻常常只注意到他們的想法和價值觀，或是這些觀念所代表的意義，忽略了去了解他們是些什么樣的人。

　　天秤三總是喜歡當主角，他們的朋友或另一半就必須扮演陪襯的角色了。然而他們也有不足的一面，需要倚靠他人的補強和協助，所以他們很能與強勢人物搭上線，建立很好的關系，即使受其支配也無所謂﹔不過反過來看，若有人有些依賴他們或完全依賴他們時，卻會令他們手足無措，一心只想逃走。他們一定要覺得自己可以大方地擔下責任才行，而且是出于自己的意愿，不是被人逼迫的。

　　天秤三的人既有男子氣概，也有女性的特質，兩種傾向都很發達。他們會在臥房里極端放肆，因為那是可以完全發泄情緒的地方，只是一旦他們的情緒決堤，噴濺出來的卻可能是憤怒與煩亂，借著爭吵、責難和怪罪一股腦兒地傾倒出來。幸好，他們發起怒來雖然很猛烈，但也不會持續太久，因為他們并不希望兩個人每天吵吵鬧鬧、爭執不休。

　　家庭是可以提供天秤三所需要的愛、支持與欣賞的地方，所以，對他們的情感來說，或許身為家中的活躍份子是最好的一件事。問題是，即使是配偶、小孩或父母等家人，也不是他們特別感興趣的對象﹔他們倒是會尋找值得信任、尊敬的一群老友一起生活、工作或游玩。然而即使如此，有工作狂傾向的他們還是不會花太多時間和任何人相處，反應出他們真正的喜好──獨自過活。

優點：社會化、野心勃勃、博學

缺點：粗率、歸罪于人、太過自信

建議：不要輕易承諾做不到的事。仔細考量自己的所作所為可能引起的反應。雖然有時候需要敷衍假裝一番，但千萬不要欺騙自己。多考慮別人的感受，對于感情方面的事要投入足夠的時間和耐心。

情侶： 雙子巨蟹座　巨蟹-獅子座　處女座一　處女座二　 射手座一　水瓶座一　水瓶座三　水瓶雙魚座　

夫妻： 牡羊座三　獅子處女座　天秤座一　射手座二　 射手魔羯座　魔羯座一

朋友： 牡羊座一　牡羊金牛座　雙子座一　巨蟹座一　 巨蟹座二　獅子座三　處女天秤座　天秤座三　天蠍座一 魔羯座三　水瓶座二　雙魚座二

家人： 金牛座三　金牛雙子座　雙子座二　天秤座二 射手座三　雙魚座三

同事： 金牛座二　雙子座三　巨蟹座三　獅子座二　 天秤天蠍座　魔羯座二　魔羯水瓶座　雙魚座一

link : http://hkluck.com/kn/a01-04.php

things i have to say ~

i know i am a jerk for running away from my problems ..
but now i wont be running away
and i will be running towards my problems...
which i think i need to and have to ..
so i will try my best to cope with this problem lately...
i know no matter what the result is ..
i still will get ngam by few ppl...
which is not a really good feeling...
now i will try my best to deal with it and
for xin , we really need more communication ....
even though that is everyone said that we needed
still theory and practical is 2 diff things...
and i really didnt did it well for the past 2~3 weeks...
still the person i am now
aint the person from before
maybe you will think that i am just blowing water ...
then the only thing i can do is do take action lo...

and i know u guys really care about that..
and i know mostly i my problem
and my communication problem...
which is very lame...
and da both of us like always misunderstood de...
sometimes when she kidding i think is serious
and when i serious she think i kidding...
so aiks....
and for xin,
what i have to say that..
i will do my thing till the end ...
i wont give up ...
even your heart is broken..
i will use glue to stick it back..
or can stick it back
then i will make u a new one ~...
these are my words..
which i think u will think its just nth la..
for me is a new start...
and i really think that going to uni
really can change someone ~
which is a nice experience ^^
------------------------------------------------

my own problem now..
aiks ... money problem again..
my phone bill is like rm180++ ..
omg....
duno how to pay ..
haiz... need eat biscut liao
and for few days later de..
need find money as well..
going for sungkai and lost world of tambun trip..
tourism club de ice breaking trip..
rm 95 a..
so ex...
haiz...
become comms..
so go see see lo..
gah you ^^

i am doing it again...

for me to my family i kinda like to hide things from them...
and as now...
i am kinda hiding things from my gf which is not telling her...
i am going out with some one which is one of my "sister"..
dun think too much pls..
for some reason,
i didnt really wanna go for tonight's lian's homecoming,
even though we are friends,
still not really got da mood...
and then xian called me ask wanna go starbuck anot...
and i didnt told my dear
cos i told her i am staying home...
so i really screwed up big times...
i know she might think that me and her got something and for my info
i think she really thinks alot,
what ideas she coming up also not sure,
aiks,,,
i am doomed...
just felt like wanna run away from things...
which most of the time i did,
and end up having bad results
or even worse lose a friend or so,
i know i am the worst friend ever
haiz..
now really duno what to think ....
thinking any of this really scares me...
as for now
she really angry.
just that i also not sure what to do now...
aiks...
kinda felt like i am doomed...

23/7

its been like duno how long since i last posted something here ~
kinda think that uni lifestyle really can change someone...
that is for me la..
just felt that in some where some part of me is changing...
maybe my uni friends might have the chance to see my bad side..
which i think some of u guys kinda wanna see..
just felt that la..
and in this new place..
really like starting something new...
just a unknown person starting over...
and everything here is unfamiliar
and dont have anyone to relay on ...
which is kinda a hell new experience..
still coping with it
haha~...

duno ....

alot of things happened lately..
i know that what happens to me
really aint a big dear to ppl around me...
they will just said oh... really o?
after hearding something bad about that person...
still i dont really think i care ?
really stupid of me
always doubting myself...
and writing something stupid...
haha
sorry for the one reading....
really sorry
haha ~
everyone is going on their own journey le..
and how bout me?
just starting my new journey and ending my old one?
and i really hate my self....
bcos i always didnt things dont hv a closing de..
which means i always did things half half only ...
the other half always very cincai finish it..
but the cincai also cant cope the problem..
and now i am running away from some ><
really stupid of me...
what's the point of running away ....
when i am the one the cause of the problem...
just come out and say it clearly then can le la ...
haiz..

i also duno what i am writing jor ><
aiks...
stupid la....
haiz...