skipping class

this week really skipped alot of class and
got 4 assignments havent finish
all just little by little nia
haiz..
initially planned to finish it this week
but in the end
what did i accomplished?
nothing ...
erm .. come to think of it
got la.
wasting my time on movies and games
really no moood to study
and suddenly realize
what i did also end up very bad ..
what does that mean?
it means that everything i did in my life
i did it very noobly
why a...
aint i good in anything , just one thing enough ..
but i dont think i got anything that i am good at...
not even 1 ...
haha
maybe i am like this
even though i am lucky to have all whole body parts attached to me as 1 body
but still ..
ahaha
talking too much nonsense ady..
now dono what to do ..
dun 1 think anything le la..
dun 1 add oil
dun 1 work hard
dun 1 do assignment
dun 1 go class
dun 1 plan ahead
dun 1 follow my plan
dun 1 think
dun 1 play
>< >< ><
haha

really wanna swt and die liao
everytime when i doing things
other things will come at the same time ..
really hate it la..
haiz..
sienz la..
just wanna express my emotions ..
nothing much ...

its complicated

today really a day
which can so call it as 1 la..
on morning wake up early and went to temple as today is a "big day"
and went there helped out
after i finish helping out
i felt sleepy and the most worse thing is i canot sleep there
haiz..
then i go talk on the phone lo ..
find ppl to chat ...
like this my mom also ngam me said ppl saw me outside talking on the phone and then ...
argue again ..
really dun like it la
haiz..
and somehow i wanted to live outside and not hostel
my mom dont let
and the reason is i will always go out ..
wtf..
even i not outside also always go out ady a
i really swt la ...
because in temple ..
so didnt argue ..
after that i went to another temple to 求签
haha..
the result quite ok a ..
got better that time ...
then go xian house ..
that big prawn forgot where her warranty is ...
and we change plan and go miin house to check gsc
to watch movie
and we watch a love comedy name its complicated
haha
really funny
long time didnt laugh like this
really happy and relaxing
inside the movie really like someone
haha
recommended to go watch ...
haha ~
maybe will got a poster come out soon
friend help edit
haha
anxious to see the poster ..
haha

fight and conquer

when can i fight and conquer
i really hope i can..
somehow
i really think i am a typical xiu ye zai
haha ~
canot tahan too much stress...
really
and the only thing i am good at is running away
and do things half half
irresponsible..
dun ever think before speak
i admit i am like that all the time ...
really felt that i am really the worst ..
suddenly felt like that la
must fight and conquer my attitudes!!!!!
roar..
haha ~..
hope to do it ..
^^

PCM

first time went to president council meeting ...
sometimes i really am i really suitable to become a president to lead?
or even a leader ...
am i fit to do so?
i really doubted myself
really..
just duno why i have this kind of doubted
really duno la..
going to become the president of archery club in mmu cyber next semester onward...
haha...
maybe it will be a fun thing to do
but really afraid am i really ok with it ?
i really not sure i can handdle it anot o

writing it in english

suddenly felt like writing things in english
really wanna improve my english
and my attitude is the 1 that will help me improve
haha ~
lately saw a friend hv a attitute like her ...
no matter how i said he will just say ok ok ...
and then now he got nose bleed and cough
also said no time go ...
really swt la..
keep telling him that health is more important that other things ...
ask him go clinic
but he just wanted remedy ...like traditional medicine...
swt la...
somehow this incident let me think of someone
someone that less care her body
even her stomach got pain also like this
nvr think of getting better to protect herself
maybe now she have change or anything
kinda long time didnt see her
even though i wanted to
she wont want la..
so nvm ba ..
just let time pass by for now ba
and now i kinda busy also..
haha ..
lately like to write things on blog ...
just feel like typing alot of things in it
and keep my feeling inside here
and i dun think i will need a password for this now la..
even i put password
just ask ba...
i might give depends on my level of emo ...
but mostly i will give la
so dun fuck me off ya..
haha ~
and
this saturday 19/3
they really wanna go to do social work with me
i going SPCA ...
haha
there sure got many cute dogs and cats
but my friend said there is 98% is dogs
so ...
haha ~
will be a good experience i think
haha ~...
doing maths
langsung no method...
so thinking wanna do it anot
haha
maybe do 1 or 2 ba
didnt really slept
and today
eat bak kut teh
felt like long time didnt eat pork liao
haha
kinda happy today
just like that ba ~

016 or 014

aikz aikz ...
felt regret of not using 016
duno why
just felt that all of the sudden
haiz haiz..
why am i so uncertain all the time ..
hate myself for that
but that is me
haiz..
really stupid a