Being Energetic !!

lately i have been doing things that are crazy and it feels good somehow duno why is that so .

and this is the first time i feel like this that things can be nice to do ...

maybe i restrict myself too much in the pass and now it is time to let go and just do it ?

or maybe i just think too much again ? haha

maybe it is true by chance i guess , and it really is nice to do things that ur heart is filled with joy ...

but still lately i am in the mode of finding inner guidance which i really need it desperately , duno why but i feel that i do need it .

as for my problem , now that i duno that the path that i have taken is right or wrong and more importantly i dont know who i am and what is my purpose for being here . i believe that everything happened for a reason , but still i cant find the reason for me being here and who am i . this really bothers me alot lately . and i have been searching answer by thinking about it over and over again . as for being energetic and keep post things in facebook it slowly turn to a way for me to express myself more better but there are consequences which i found that i like lost the way to connect or to communicate with people. the way i speak is like weird weird ady and always go to no point ... duno what i am doing also ... cacat ><

and being energetic really is something good and feels nice for me ... hehe . Today been watching movie whole day and now wanna rest and tmr starts the real battle with i have to do alot of coding stuff. wish me luck hehe .. hope that i wont go crazy and go nuts ... haha

there is a saying that rest now is just to travel further later on . hope this is true ^^

aura ...

What is Aura ?

• a sensation (as of a cold breeze or bright light) that precedes the onset of certain disorders such as a migraine attack or epileptic seizure
• an indication of radiant light drawn around the head of a saint
• air: a distinctive but intangible quality surrounding a person or thing; "an air of mystery"; "the house had a neglected air"; "an atmosphere of defeat pervaded the candidate's headquarters"; "the place had an aura of romance"
  ( answer from the web )
  

but for me aura is the feeling u got from the person .

and lately i have been thinking about my own aura ... i came to a conclusion which is ppl's likes to thinks this way but i usually ends up the other way around .. for example , others will think that i have alot of friend but in the end i dont think so ,
others will think that i am in a relationship even though that i am not in 1 ...
people will think that i am hardworking and good in everything but in the end of the day i am just a lazy bump which is bad and alame in everything ..
how funny is this ?
but it is the fact that people do think like this when they describe me .
but why am i writing this post ? even i also not sure about it
just that i do care what others think about me . true that i am a selfish person .
i love being the center of attention ,
i love to listen to people's stories ,
i love to make new friends ,
but these things it is like impossible .
so i will just think of it sometimes and that is enough for me

now i am something that prefers to sit quietly in a corner and observe what is happening or so .
dun really like to participate .
haha ...

as for aura , hoping to alter it ...
haha but not really sure about it myself though
so just do it slowly kaka