懒惰

最近都很懒惰

真的

我自己也不太懂为什么

哈哈

真的

连今天又考试我都我行我素的

哈哈

真的不懂会不会拿到比较好的成绩

加上明年一整年都是long long long...

假期就变少了

真的可以应付的来吗？

以我这样懒惰的性格

真的可以？

每次将要改

到最后还是没有什么进展的

真的不懂我这20

年的人生是怎样过的

头痛~为什么我是这样的一个人？

haiz....

somehow

somehow i started to think that

i am letting history repeats itself...

somehow i felt that i have lived b4 and did something bad...

just felt that suddenly...

i am repeating my actions when i am in my high schools...

and somehow

i dont think it will be good when it continues to manifest...

then what should i do?

stop it?

or let it be?

or maybe run away?

but if i choose to run away

i dont think i have any place to run anymore...

just thinking that running isnt an option anymore

so have to face it now...

but what will it be?

stop it? how?

or let it be?

if i choose to let it be

then it would have a bad ending in the end...

so?

only option now is to stop it

but how?

any help?

haha....

been changing a little lately..

starting to force myself to read before going to bed..

and i want it to become my habbit

so doing it slowly...

hehe

and somehow that is the habbit i think will help me calm a little

haha

somehow...

i hope i will change into a new person.

and start my life as a new 1

but i cant...

cos there are doubts and worried...

woondering now ...

been wondered for quite some time

so maybe it is time to stop wonder

and settle down a little

PS : the things is nothing serious nor scary...

so dont ask ok....

thanks ...

inside meaning....

i aint a person which is really good at interpretating meaning..

and i will usually just look at the surface of the words..

then straight think it is..

cos i wont think too much...

maybe because of this

i am easy to trust ppl

or give ppl cheat ba..

also not sure at all..

haha

somehow, i felt that i don really hv a meaning for my life...

finding that really takes alot..

i really hope got someone or something that can guide me...

that day , i went to pangkor with 3 friends...

for me , i am a bit superstision...

so i will go for "qui qian"

the result not really good...

it said my mouth will attracts troubles..

so lately i been keeping my mouth shut..

until today ,

really felt that chatting with best friends and friends really got big difference..

in mmu,

i am a quiet and shy person...

and seldom talks...

but back KL

i wont..

even though

really besides best friends...

normal friends didnt find me at all..

unless got special events...

so, starting to felt that friends really are important..

haha...

maybe i am thinking too much...