lately...

started from last week~~
my job become very very nth to do ~~
today is the most free yet ~~
i can take a little nap on my drawer
nearly 30 min only...
and wake up le still nth to do ,
then take book and read + sms...
so u can imagine how free i can be...
really nth to do for now...
few days later need stick 200 menu ><
maybe i just go back help gua..
still not sure...
told boss on tuesday
that i will stop working till end of this month
which is tmr.
and his reaction like nth...
and my colleague got ask me march got what plan and why leave so early
so i tell her lo...
and tell her i wont be free most of the time
but she told me and said that
maybe when free come back work lo
scare the blangadesh buruh cant work too many things a...
and ask me help lo..
i also duno a..
just free then back help lo..
haha ~~
today also bored whole day and only truly worked on 4 to 630pm...
cos print poster
just sit there guard the paper
nth else le..
tmr also like this gua...

lately kinda addicted to katy perry
maybe going to find her album and listen listen
hehe ^^
got few of her songs le very nice...
and need to buy formal shirt and leather shoe le
sienz...
need use money ><
really no $ use a...
debt too high ><
need some adjustment..
haha....
haiz...

ps : now even my colleagues thinks that i am spm only ><
am i really that childish?
haha maybe yes? duno a...
zzz
still got a little cant accept this kind of comments
even though its been quite some time le...
since i heard this kind of comment ...
haha ~~
just accept it ba ~~ nth to do more...

病好了

wuwu
整整一个星期++
才痊愈~
生病真得不是很好受的哦~

我又要换工作了
因为这份工
有点点太空闲了~
没什么东西做~
上个星期才开始这样的~
因为我的老板
请了3位新员工
我的工作量就减少很多了~
然后这几天，
我都没什么东西做
别的同事就整天都在忙
就让我感觉很不自在咯~
其他人在忙
而我就没东西做
在位子发呆咯~
所以就跟老板讲我做到这个月底
他也只是orh...了几下
算答应了把~
哈哈~
如果我没有事先跟我老板讲
跟我的家人商量的话~
他们一定是要我留下的~
都不懂为什么要留下~
真得有点莫名其妙哦~
rm4.5 per hour
真得很低一下~
连外劳都比我的多~
哈哈~

我才刚刚病好
就乱乱跑了~
给我妈妈ngam了几下~
然后hor
我得全家人都觉得我有女朋友了
真得不懂我哪一个部分像有女朋友的~
我只是sms比较多
比较长出去
这样而已阿~
真得很奇怪也~
blek...
就算我想要一个
也没人要我拉~
这样幼稚又没责任感
也不太付出的一个人
还会有人要的阿~？
不理这么多拉~

今天我忘记去买unik no ><
明天一定要买阿~
鸡蛋糕了拉~
其他都填了
剩我一个还没填
haiz...
gambateh la ~~

09年的情人节

在情人节，的前夕才开始生病
真的又没有搞错哦~
刚刚开始时，
我还以为是小事来的
但是，在做工的途中
越来越不舒服了~
然后就去看医生(中医)
然后就请半天的假
还好这个老板蛮随和的
哈哈
然后，就回家睡大觉
起来时，已经是晚上9pm了
然后我真个人很累又很热，
大腿有红点~
就没什么理一下~
吃饱饱后，
就继续做猪
但是，我的房间真的很热
就有点困难入眠

到了情人节当天，
我本身是很想留在家
哪里都不要去~
可是，我妈妈就偏要我出去店里
我知道她是想方便看着我才这么做的
不过还好他有这么做~
因为那天我的烧退了一下然后又回来了
之后就去看clinic doctor
不懂要讲我们幸运还是倒霉
我们去到后
刚好是他打烊前20分钟
哈哈~
登记后就开始等~
等到nurse教导我的名字时
就进去咯
那位医生为了一些问题后
帮我量以下我那时候的身体多少度
我听到她跟我妈妈讲"one hundred and 2"
unit我没听到，不过应该是degree的
就一边帮我看病一边讲人生道理
就我听到多少就多少咯~
看完后
就回家吃药
然后做猪
09年的情人节，就这样过了~
哈哈

直到昨天，
我的病都好多了
我的其中一个智慧牙的位置开始痛
然后我的姐姐
就讲可能是因为我要长智慧牙
所以才生病了~
是吗？
真的吗？
又来语无伦次了~

语无伦次的我

这几天，我都会语无伦次的
为什么会这样我真的不懂也
就很自然变成这样了
就需要时间去满满的便回来啊~
感觉上我的断断续续的mindset又回来了
像东西会断断续续的
就我的脑要做联会的function有点不容易的
哈哈
就觉得有些时候
我会被别人忽略掉的
就不懂为什么
他们会很自然的忽略了我一下
就看得出拉
或许我把我自己看得有点重吧
我真的开始又有点语无伦次了~
都不懂自己讲什么了~

翰尧阿~翰尧
你快醒醒啊~
别在睡觉了拉
这不是梦啊~
要醒醒哦~
还有要认证的决定自己要什么哦~
别在犹豫不决了拉
这样会误了大事的哦~
别这样啊~
来用心，来告诉你自己
你要的是什么啊~
而不是我行我素的
努力加油~
你可以的
believe in yourself ~~

looking 4 help?

lately i have been calling for someone to chat with...
cos duno why felt like wanting to find someone.
just that there's not really someone there for me to find
if u know what i mean,
hehe~
they say wed night go watch bride war wor...
i am ok with that as long as i dont go home too late ^^
so fine with me ^^
now at friend's house taking some songs from him
haha ~~
from 10 something till now
u guess how many songs i got from him?
not many actually...
after finishing this post need to go back home asap le..
if not, weill kena scold or ngam again...
haha.
so, waiting for the someone right now...
haiz...
really duno how long i can hold myself together

haiya dun think too much yet ba ~~
think of others more inportant de 1st la
hehe
blek blek...
gah you ~~
new year resolution havent write complete ><
and my resume still havent touched it...
really need to get myself going
and not just standing here ><
yaoz a ~~
when u think u can , u really can and must take action at once.
waiting is just a waste of time
but in some occasion its good
but for now please stop the just thinking and take some action ...
haha ~~
gah you o ~~

me, me and me

lately kinda hunger for money ><
too many target need $ to get it ...
haha
really hope to get them b4 i go to uni
kinda stressful lately...
duno why just hope to say it to some one or thing loudly...
keeping inside really will make someone crazy sometimes...
and for today ...

i went to my relatives house
chit chat a little only...
cos most of them is older than me
and all of them know how to speak hokkien
and i dont ><
which i hate it very much
cos listening to something i duno
and 1 of my cousin when to HELP to study lending from ptptn
the other 1 is at ktar
that's all i know from the cousin's around my age de
older one all around age with my parents...
and all they talk is cooking and health de stuff...
mostly cooking la..
and this topic... erm...
kinda like very unfamiliar to me ...
and i sms miin said very boring...
she said i very geng at ls...
actually i am very noob around my ch friends le
mostly of them are more pro and better than me
so dun say i pro or anything like that pls..
u all think i am pro?
i am not and that's the truth
so pls dun say that la...
haha ~~

my bad habits are coming back...
which is very 小孩子气
and very unpatient...
sometimes really duno what to say bout my family la...
Mommy - always ngam said no one will help her lighten her burden, everything must be done my herself and non of her children inherrited her responsibility, and always say when i was 7 i ad helping my parents wash clothes and do house work le la, what have u done?
Daddy - doesnt care or listen to anything ppl said or do , very giam siap on spending money on others places beside food ,
eldest sister - kinda ok sometimes but got any problem told her , 100% will tell mother, and that's the only things no good for now
2nd sister - basically a ok person, but when it comes to money totally cold hearted
3rd sister - most bossy one among all 3 sisters , and her temper are quite similiar to hers
older bro - everything also ok, just that he didnt do well in his job so always kena scold by my 2nd sis .
younger bro - having same habits as my older bro, and loves to kacau me and got " pork hand" around the house almost everyone has kena his "pork hand" just like one of my best friend... really haiz... and he is the king in the house , but at outside he is very very shy.

basically this is all my family and they really love to call me to do things as like i am the ah 4 there, sometimes really angry bout that cos those climbing up and down things all is automatically related to me to finish the job.
and now my younger bro he's taller than me and much more muscle than me
still i am the one doing those things ><
really very sienz la...
maybe i became the quiet one in a group is because of them?
maybe i guess
haha ^^

and to someone at kampar
Happy Birthday o ~~
haha ~~
blek ~~

want to find another part time job

its been 3 weeks since i worked, times does flies by sometimes.
and i really hope that i can find another part time job to cope with my money problems
its like getting more and more serious
and guys, those i promise to belanja
i will keep my promise but not now
the time will come within this year so be patient pls
hehe
and kinda learnt alot of things ^^
hehe ~~
and played with hao's new kitten, its really cute and fluffy.
really nice to hug ^^
haha ~~
alot of thing really meant to be made by ourselves and ourselves only
others only can help to give opinion
and the final decision still own to make
but sometimes really envious of those really determined and persistent on pursuing their dreams
this is a gift that i dont have
but i am trying to gain it by hardwork
need time to gain than..
and hardwork i mean really HARD WORk..
cos i am those kind of ppl who easily give up on somethings...
so really hard....
and finally i decided on buying w960
no going back now..
aiming it on may this year ^^
hehe~~
hope to get it soon...
wuwu
wanting to find another part time job for only fri to sun de
anyone got suggestion?

anything but ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident, turibulent, succulent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
oh
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.


lately i am addicted to this song not just its rhytum but its lyrics too ~~
this is just one the songs that i like
the other one is the fray - you found me..

in some way i really felt lost and dont know what to do,
and now i am wondering around aimlessly,
i know what kind of person i am,
and i will relay strongly on those who will help me,
so think twice on trying to help,
haha,
i think i am crazy saying stuff like this,
i guess its ok de ~~

aiks~~

my result is coming out jor ><
need to think hao hao what to study le o ~~
no time to play jor ><
need to fill in the eborang thing and buy the unik no from BSN ><
haiz..
so mafan ><
most important is what to study a...
really duno with my result what can study...
do i need to follow what my heart leads me?
i really duno what to do now ><
haiz..
felt very lost...
why is that a...
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hope to get it done...
need to make at least 3~4 option for myself to choose ><
need to make them within this week..
no time to play le?
haha ~~
can de..
trust yourself ><..
really starting duno what to write or say ...
getting more and more confused...
and my vocabulary is getting weaker day by day...
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