Wednesday, December 30, 2009

the thought.

starting from that day she asked me that question.
i really thinked about it.
am i really that bad that she wanted to have that ending
or am i really not enough for her?
the 2nd 1 is more possible...
really been thinking lately...
then my feel for her getting someone better is stronger le
i know i aint the person that she can really be happy with
cause alot of things that she wanted i canot just simply canot
i also duno why.
since yesterday incident ,
will going to turn out less from now on,
maybe somewhere in my heart it really hurts.
for some reason ,
yesterday is the time i canot take it
then burst like that.
really felt that if she really wanted it then so be it.
after that msg,
been driving on the high ways,
just keep driving ,
really felt that needed to hv a place calm to let me pack myself
again ,
and
what's done is done
no matter how u try to undone
damage is already done,
and sorry really is no cure ,
and i canot do anything to atone it
i really scare i will cause more dmg
or
maybe really my fault that u are hurt,
i am the 1 that always hurt u,
i will be away from u now on ,
u wont get hurt by me anymore,
just had 1 wish ,
hope u can let me see it,




be happy and enjoy ur life ya ^^.
to someone that i loved and will still always be,

1 comment:

Float~ said...

How many time i told u,be confident with yourself?
If u loved her so much,why cant u believe u are the right person for her.
U are not as bad as u thought,u have your own strong and weak spot.
Why must u amplified your weakness to other and never notice about your strenght.
Why must u say what u cant do for her and keep blaming yourself for it and have her know about it without even try. Why cant u think of what can u do for her,what she really need and be that person in front of her.
Damage done doesn't mean an end to a relationship,if u really want it to work,have u try hard enough?
Even a damage car also can be fix and repair,a broken wrist can also heal by itself,why not reationship.Surely it wont be the same as before,there surely be scar,bruise and painful memories left behind, but that is what make a relationship special and unique.When a conflict occur why not take this oppurtunity to stregthen your relationship rather than destroy it?
There a solution for every problem.
Don't just give up so easily.
Don't just do it for other, do it for yourself.