fight and conquer

when can i fight and conquer
i really hope i can..
somehow
i really think i am a typical xiu ye zai
haha ~
canot tahan too much stress...
really
and the only thing i am good at is running away
and do things half half
irresponsible..
dun ever think before speak
i admit i am like that all the time ...
really felt that i am really the worst ..
suddenly felt like that la
must fight and conquer my attitudes!!!!!
roar..
haha ~..
hope to do it ..
^^

PCM

first time went to president council meeting ...
sometimes i really am i really suitable to become a president to lead?
or even a leader ...
am i fit to do so?
i really doubted myself
really..
just duno why i have this kind of doubted
really duno la..
going to become the president of archery club in mmu cyber next semester onward...
haha...
maybe it will be a fun thing to do
but really afraid am i really ok with it ?
i really not sure i can handdle it anot o

writing it in english

suddenly felt like writing things in english
really wanna improve my english
and my attitude is the 1 that will help me improve
haha ~
lately saw a friend hv a attitute like her ...
no matter how i said he will just say ok ok ...
and then now he got nose bleed and cough
also said no time go ...
really swt la..
keep telling him that health is more important that other things ...
ask him go clinic
but he just wanted remedy ...like traditional medicine...
swt la...
somehow this incident let me think of someone
someone that less care her body
even her stomach got pain also like this
nvr think of getting better to protect herself
maybe now she have change or anything
kinda long time didnt see her
even though i wanted to
she wont want la..
so nvm ba ..
just let time pass by for now ba
and now i kinda busy also..
haha ..
lately like to write things on blog ...
just feel like typing alot of things in it
and keep my feeling inside here
and i dun think i will need a password for this now la..
even i put password
just ask ba...
i might give depends on my level of emo ...
but mostly i will give la
so dun fuck me off ya..
haha ~
and
this saturday 19/3
they really wanna go to do social work with me
i going SPCA ...
haha
there sure got many cute dogs and cats
but my friend said there is 98% is dogs
so ...
haha ~
will be a good experience i think
haha ~...
doing maths
langsung no method...
so thinking wanna do it anot
haha
maybe do 1 or 2 ba
didnt really slept
and today
eat bak kut teh
felt like long time didnt eat pork liao
haha
kinda happy today
just like that ba ~

016 or 014

aikz aikz ...
felt regret of not using 016
duno why
just felt that all of the sudden
haiz haiz..
why am i so uncertain all the time ..
hate myself for that
but that is me
haiz..
really stupid a

this kind of thought

long time dun have this kind of thought liao ..
haha~
after yesterday aruna seminar series ...
guest speaker is dato vijay eswaran...
can say is Questnet de boss ...
haha ~
his speak not bad o ..
slowly slowly into the topic ...
but totally nothing about questnet la..
just a motivating seminar
not bad
haha...
learn to walk the talk and not just talk
mean that i need to treat myself the way i want ppl to treat me
haha ~

and the quote i most remember de is
what u want doesnt mean that is what u need
what u need is more important thant what u want
true true ..
~
haha

today i go 3 meetings in 1 row
really swt ...
i myself also swt dao
haha ~
from 8 pm start meeting till 1030 finish all 3 meeting
1st meeting from 8 to 9
then 2nd meeting is 9 to nearly 10
then 10 till 1030
haha ~
tired o
going to rest soon
then fight for tmr

行尸走肉？？

自己真得很像小孩子~
每天只是想着玩
除了玩还是玩
感觉不是很想独立~
我就是这样？
在想有什么可以真的让我去改变~
想了又想
好像也没什么哦~
真的步态知道自己要的是什么？
很没有目标~
盲目的走
我的生活为的是谁？
要的是什么？
目的是什么？
感觉自己真的是个活生生的行尸走肉
可以不要有这样的感觉吗？
不是很喜欢
但是这种感觉几偏偏一直出现
要吗？
感觉自己很不争气
很没有用

哈哈~
还有今天真得很倒霉
镇当我要做我的assignment
virus就来了
还是很厉害的
once online then kena
no online no problem
可能是个好事吧
可以让我读书？
但是可能吗？
认识我的人都会觉得我不会吧~
哈哈
不知道啦~
要去做assignment了

郝没有心情哦~

假期一个星期过了

还有8个小时我就要上课了~

也想睡了

来谢谢看哦

哈哈

最近的我真得不知道想做什么

很不喜欢这样的感觉

但是能怎样他要来就来阿~

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哈哈

看了alice in the wonderland & soloman kane ..

alice 呢就还好没什么感觉拉

就普通

soloman kane

有yeng

但是故事不好

不是很懂要表达什么还是讲什么

哈哈~

对不起哦~

我知道某人会生气

但是对不起

最近的我也有很多事情要做~

下个sem

我就是archery club president了

这一任的president

还有东西要交待

我都还没有收完

haiz..镇没用~

还有呢~

20/3

我要做moral de assignment

就是做social work ><

无言~~

27/3

好像也有东西要做

3/4~4/4

我会根我学校的tourism club

去cameron

10/4

我上云顶

3/5 7/5 14/5

这3天是我的final

真的不知道要怎样

haiz...

真得不知道没什么会这样

累

也有点无言

还有assignment tuesday due date...

do till 10~20% nia...

going to continue tomoro ~

gambateh la..

go bath then sleep le o ..

body sticky...

today interview...

今天真的好糗
在assignment interview时
电话响，讲话语无伦次
哈哈~
给老师留下了坏的形象了
omg...
不过一进去
他就问我有没有抄袭别人的作业
真的swt..
我回答没有~
但是，停顿了一下就讲有
抄课本的东西
哈哈，
然后呢，他叫我解释我写的东西
我解释到乱七八糟
还要我用英文。。。
英文你叫我写就还好
叫我讲就会听到很多奇怪的发音...
哈哈~
然后老师就讲我不是很了解那个东西
我也很诚实的回答一半一半，
然后他就讲，这样做真的是很不对
用几个小时还是一天的是讲再赶作业
是很不负责任的，
处此也发挥不了你的potential..
我听到时
也只是点头
不知道要讲什么
哈哈~
所以哦~
就觉得很糗
因为电话又响了一下~
swt..swt...
哈哈~
真得很糗

算了吧~
明天要开始了~
现在都不是很会~
会点点~
但是听很多senior讲
这一科很多人fail的
真得很怕
只好听天由命了~
加油哦~