29/12/2008

today is my break day....
i really duno what to do...
i really think that i am childish and immature in a lot of ways...
duno why just felt that...
this job not that i dont like
but its really tiring ~~
and now my salary got problem ><
hate that ~~
better i work 7 days then go la..
need work till now ~~
stupid of me ><
cos of that 25/12/2008 is counted as holiday for all of the staffs...
and my salary on that day will be given to me at 1/1/2009
means i will get my 1 day salary on the feb of 2009 ~~
really crazy lo...
so maybe work for few more days then stop lo..
if i continue to stay i will kill myself....
now my legs and hands hurts
and everyday i come back from work
felt like very hunger...
maybe cos i use alot of energy working gua..
and i didnt consume enough food for me to use?
maybe la...
so tomorow need ask ask the manager see how how ba...
if work i think i work till saturday and sunday for me to rest a little
then monday start to find my new job...
if cant find any them i might end up working for my parents..
even though its kinda relaxing working there
but still...
i would prefer finding another job...
cos kinda felt too relay on my parents
wanna break free in some way
maybe that;s why i still havent grown up
and still so naive....and 叛逆
its what i saw it in my actions ~~
really duno why is this so ~~
haiz...><
if can i really prefer to study...
but my study time really almost over..
if my stpm really cant get good grades then i am doomed..
its true...
and i wont bear to think of that ...
so i only can hope for the best right now ^^
haha ~~

Ps: at my working place...
everyone think of me as 15~18 years old o ~~
more worse is that someone this year form 4 said i look like a year younger than him...
its ok i guess.... cos i go everywhere also give ppl call me small kid de ...
haha ~~

28/12/2008

today is the 4th days of busy day~~
it really is crazy...
i really am i decisive person ~~
always cant hold on a decision and take action on it...
always just shake on my decision ~~
really hate that feeling ..
but still i keep having this kind of feeling...
today my supervisor asked me again
am i really going to quit...
and i cant give him a confident answer...
why am i like this?
anyone can give any advises?
most of the reply will just only say u must decide on your own...
haiz.. that i really know o ~~
and if i continue work...
earliest i can leave is 10/2/2009
cos its te 16th of the CNY month ~~
so its like finish CNY jor..
cos my sis said CNY only 15 days...
so quite long o...
and my supervisor really like no eye see jor...
he just call me said i work 1030am...
and if i continue work then maybe will change time de o ~~...

i really duno what to do now actually...
really that this kind of uncertainty feel...
it sucks....
but what's the use?
its my decision to make in the end...
so work or quit?
my choice...
what's the use of complaining now?
cos its my decision from the start...
there's nothing to complain about...
so what's my final decision?
i think i will quit then....
relax and think about my future
and what should i do in the next year...
i think that will do me more good i guess....
i really think that i am a jerk right now ...
haiz....
and some how felt lonely...
watching alot of couples in mv....
really turn on my loneliness de leh ><
hate that a....
haiz....
going to sleep now...
blek ~~

24/12/2008

today is a good day to start with
its because i can finally sleep more than 8 hours a day ~~
haha ~~
really happy ~~
and relaxing
even though still kinda tiring ~~
and today is the small gathering..
not as successful as i expected
cos i didnt do much things~~
just did a little ~
still its very relaxing ~~
really wish that i didnt listen to my mom or the manager
and quit earlier ><
sometimes i really think that i am very stupid
cos i change my mind very easily...
really hate that...
today de gathering..
lots of ppl didnt come
cos we too late tell them the details..
and its my fault i guess...
i always do things recklessly de..
haiz..
still got 1 more week to go then can rest at home le ~~
muahahahaha~~
gahyou a ~~
today de bbq quite happy de o ~~
and when me and gloria back home
i keep tell her i will fly car de o
and lucky she didnt scream...
if she scream
i think my probability of car accident will increase greatly...
so for those who love to scream...
please do not sit beside the driver sit there...
when i am driving...
thanks for the coorporation o ~~
haha ~~
and quite alot of ppl will be lonely during this christmas o ~~
but nvm ba ~~
still got chance to be with others during other chrstmas de o ~~
so duno be so dull
cheer up ya ~~
hehe ~~
write till here ba ~~

7th day of my work

today is a struggling day ~~
a senior wanna quit
and i too wanna quit
cos i think it really consume alot of energy and time...
and i really tired from standing for 8.5 hours plus plus...
really tiring and suffering.
in alot of ways ...
i kinda get friendly with all of them except the chefs...
but most of them not really coi me de unless i talk to them

today my supervisor heard dao me say wanna quit...
then he got ask me y lo...
i tell him le,..
then we eat in kimgary~~
he always go there de...
we chat a lot...
and learn alot of things from him o ~~
haha ~~
really tiring de work lo...
and most worst is...
today i finish my work at 10pm..
they only tell me every sunday got meeting de...
haiz...
lucky my sisters there to fetch me ~~
if not i duno will till how long only can back..
if i miss le bus then omg ...
cant go home le ~~
but b4 tat i got tell manager i going to quit jor...
and my supervisor like dissapointed in me lo...
cos he keep ask me to stay for 3 month
he say 3 months also cant stand it meh?
and he added now a days de youth .. really cant stand it ~~...
i admit tat myself..
cos most of the time i am kinda like tat myself...


and the gathering..
i really no time to organize a..
cos working most of the time...
and its like killing me ~~
physically and mentally..
so i asked rumin to help ask ppl...
they settle jor at 24/12/2008
venue i not sure~

haha
need sleep le..
if not tmr no energy to stand jor le la..~~~
and my break time is 3~515 pm...
and finish work at 10pm...
during my work i wont answer any phone calls or msg de o ~~
hehe ~~

5th day of work

today is a crazy day...
I need to wake up at 7 something to attend a meeting at 830 am
in the garden's kanton-i
kinda suffering...
and it really made me very tired..
but at least i finally survive it..
and they got a 晚会 2days b4 chinese new year
it's at 1 u there..
so far from my house..
and i hv to ask my parents 1st
cos duno they got eat outside tat day anot..
haiz...
and today keep kena ngam
cos i kinda sleepy..
and everything i not sure de also ask captain or the manager..
now really need to memorize all the things in the menu ~~
really alot and i still not sure which is which..
haiz...
duno why a...
some customer like to 're' me de...
but i ignore them de..
haha ~~
duno is good or bad...
and today xian and miin got come mv..
xian wan to cut hair...
but i think she dun cut better...
haha ~~
and we try the food at yoyo snack...
quite nice for the yoyo chicken nugget ~~
haha ~~
and i drank 2 cup of 'yinyang' then only can tahan till now
if now will kena more scold..
sometimes really tot of give then pecat a ~~
cos really tiring de..
write till here ba ~~
kinda dizzy jor and need bath ~~
gambateh ~~
for the salary ~~
must gambateh o ~~
hehe ~~
hope i can get good grades for my stpm ~~
i will hope for da best de ~~
gah you ~~~

work~~

today is my 3rd day of work..
and my leg really really hurt...
and when i fall asleep i hardly want to wake up ~~
and that's something we dont experience everyday...
now my legs have gotten use to it just a little..
i keep doing things slowly...
sometimes too much things but too little hand...
so will kena ngam for doing other things
and not the things tat those high position de think is important...
but its ok now..
getting use to it ad..
still trying to adapt that situation ~~
kinda like first time for me..

for the gathering..
i really not sure can successfully organized or not..
cos my working time really unsure...
so need to wait i guess..
if really cant then i am sorry to all of those i have invited..
cos i really no time to organise...
hope we will get the chance in the near future ^^
hehe ~~
and i think tat day will come de ~~

1 more thing
since yesterday ...
i saw a small group of ppl like 3~5
not sure...
taking u71 rapid...
and i seen them since yesterday..
and today i saw them again ~~
and i heard them said something bout me ~~
just heard dao the company i working for de..
dun think too much pls..

my working place de ppl all very nice de..
but need some time to adapt all of them
and learn how to communicate with them ba~~
still learning..
i cant be the one who always hide under my skin..
but to protect my self with confident..
haha
say dao like this
hope i can do it ba ~~
gambateh ~~
and wish everyone all da best
and those who are sicked can get well soon~~
so, good night ~~

finally found a job~~

wuwu~~
finally decided wat job to do le..
but i scare my manager will give me gek dao~~~
haha ~~
duno o.~~
kinda nervous now..
felt like need to do everything perfect for the 1st time..
but not sure is everything is right anot...
haiz...
hehe~~
lately...
really need to organize the 7s1 + 6s2 de gathering o..
if not scare no time for 7s1 full party to appear in the same place le..
cos 1 of them , is going aus next year de feb
and others continue back their studies..
so i think this time is the best b4
all can regather again...
haha ...
but since i will start work tmr..
so next week de free time duno got anot...
if dun hv i will still try to organize de..
just wont show up ba ~~
duno o ~~
later only see how how ba ~~

and my 'family'
is in a cold war now...
duno when it will end...
since it just started not long ago..
but i really think it will be solved
just in the matter of time...
so now all i can do is just be patient
i think that's the only thing i can do for now..
haha...

i will stop here for now..
i hope that those who is sicked would get well soon
and everyone all the best ~~
gambateh o ~~

zzz

lately keep finding job ~~
duno will be selected anot..
haiz..
yesterday, we go yam cha...
after gloria came...
we start talking something very private de..
haha~~
and someone is eating maggie goreng with a little cilly source..
we talk dao he dun 1 eat jor..
haha..
and 1 nth to say jor...
so left 3 crazy de talk...
later 3 of the girls go back le..
hao n me go play dota...
kinda long time didn play le..
just play few rounds...
later on when i back home..
my bro baru close com ~~
tat''s like around 2 am le..
haha...

then till today morning...
my dog's coller duno how been taken off from her...
then my sis keep use door bell to call me wake up~~
cos she scare of the dog...
haiz...
maybe cos she likes to jump on ppl and all..
still she can be very scary sometimes ~~
haha ~~
that all for now ba ~~
hehe ^^

1st outing after exams...

Finally finished my exams...
now thinking of going to do what..
and what i can and would study in the future...
and what english name i am going to use ~~
haha..

yesterday i went to sunway pyramid o ~~
to celebrate one of my best friend's bday...
even though we cant all make it..
still we had some fun ~~
any lately one of my friends being really weird..
for what reasons she changed?
that i really duno..
just know that since she knew her result...
she start to react weirdly.
at first , i really thought its just her way to let things pass..
but now i found it more weird...
she wrote on her blog saying that she doesnt want us to help her
haiz..
really starting to feel that she's trying to aviod something..
or its just i think too much ..
i really duno...
just for my concern...
friends are to help each other when they are in need of help..
but for me, i aint always that kind of person all the time...
so i wont consider i myself as one true friend...
just normal friend i guess..
haha...
talk too much le..
come back to my writing..

yesterday xian , shuxin , shuhui , hao , gloria n me...
we went to sunway pyramid..
we planned to go there before 130pm
to eat at sakae sushi...
but it ended jamming everywhere..
so it too use like 230pm to reach there
and on the way we leave shuxin and shuhui for their korean language class..
then the 4 of us are left at sunway..
we ate A&W...
and i got to eat my favourate food there ..
which is the waffle and root beer ... ^^
hehe ^^
then after the two sisters finish their class..
we went shopping, during shopping i ran into yingar..
which are i long time didnt saw her...
and i accompany her a while with her shopping..
later i meet up with the rest of the group.
didnt really send her back home...
such bad person i am...
later on , we went to watch Twilight..
its quite nice ..
the Vampire inside is very "beautiful"
in some ways...
not like in the horror movies..
but just the main characters which are vampires that are "beautiful"
and the main actress Isabella Swan ...
she's beautiful also ^^
haha ~~
totally my type ...blek ~~
and the girls , they so fall for the main character called Edward Cullen
haha
both main characters are handsome and pretty ^^
after that ,
we went to Sakae sushi to have our dinner..
and the manage there is quite friendly and funny too ^^
and they hv vacancy there..
and hor there got 1 lengzai o ~~...
xian and shuxin use thier "hamsap" eye to look at the waiter when he put food on our table...
haha ~~
just an expression , hope u 2 girls wont mind ^^
later on after we finished..
we rush back to gloria house..
and then went to send xian back.. and take uno stuff there
then we reappear at gloria's house..
to play uno stack...
which i sucks in this game...
and we played... for like 9 rounds.. and i lost the most which is 4 times..
and shuxin lost 3 times and gloria lost 1 and shu hui also lost 1 time..
haiz...
nearly 1 we only send the 2 sisters back then only back our own homes..
its been like a while since i had to go home that late in the night..
wa...
wrote alot le..
haha ~~
just wondering how is she doing right now...