thinking through....

started from last saturday 24/1/2009
i have been facing comp till today..
and its like kinda boring and stuff like that
cos when i online i only surf and click on some websites and msn
which made me bored quickly..
and most of all,
i felt aimlessly and living like a robot
always doing things that i am told and living the same kind of lifestyle
but the most important is that i cant change my bad habits..
which i am used to it and sometimes hurts my loved ones..
omg, what am i saying here...
still i have alot of BAD habits...
and still i sometimes manage to withstand it
but lately i felt like i cant control it anymore...
and felt like it will burst out any time

today i think through some things..
which is everyone around me is moving on
and i still stay behind
wondering when will it end
they said life is cruel
and by cruel, its heartless
this is my way of running away i guess

kinda not sure where i am going...
haha
i saw her blog
and she ad had the person she admire
so i guess its time for me to let go...
lolz...
later at 2 need work again a..
sienz dao...
tmr also got work...
hope can fast over it
and rest more hehe~~

wootz

aiks... today is the 2nd day of CNY and i still didnt say it here...
Happy Chinese New Year to Everyone ^^
hehe ~~
may it brings us good fortune and good luck ^^
today i accompany my eldest sister to airport to sent her off
then i back home...
kinda long time didnt go to KLIA jor..
haha
then 11 something i went out with my family and off to Mid valley
to watch movie
in the mean while, i go get my 5 day salary at my ex working place..
hehe ~~
really shocked to see everyone's uniform changed and its become nicer than be4
haha~~
and in some way, kinda missed there...
maybe cos of the people there gua...
one thing i 1st time heard de..
its i cant say happy chinese new year in cantonese ,
cos if u interprate it will be CNY faster over...or something like that...
haha
so, got my cheque...
and later on need to take it out to treat them...
its ok ^^
cos i owe them too much...
and today after finish the movie
then back home..
and i have been sitting in front of the comp since then
and i found out that 1 of my idol kelly clarkson's going to release her newest album on march and title as All I Ever Wanted
making her my idol is cos her songs are really really cool ^^
and i love them much ~~
hehe ~~
now waiting...
erm... nth to write jor tim..
maybe upload some picture i took yesterday ba ~~
hehe

my 3rd sis and me

my 2nd sis and me

my eldest sis and me

my dad and me

1st day of Chinese New year 2009

wahahaha
today nothing much happened..
just as usual...
go cousin's house to visit them
but my father's side there mostly went to travelling jor
so only went to my mom's side which is my aunt
staying at KL de..
and we went there around 2 something
and chatted till 3 something
only back
then we tried to book movie all's well end's well
but its fully booked...
not really though
just that all left front 3 rolls..
so we booked for tmr de..
haha ~~
and tonight
me and my 3 sisters and my dad
went to the Mines
cos my 2nd sis wanna go shopping
but in the end
we end up walking around the mines wonderland
but we kinda took some pictures there
haiz..
but during the way back home...
i took a very good de picture...
which shows my sis very LC de..
but after that my eldest sis wanted me to pump oil for her car..
then i left the camera in the car
so, the nice picture gone le ><
haiz..
still i took some of it...
almost all my family expect my mom and elder bro
haha
and sook shin u can see my bro
is it really so han yao...
=.="

unexpectedly

today really have alot of surprice o~~
morning i wake up...
then i do my usual routine...
as open comp
and play ..
then a friend asked me to acc to lowyat
i agreed with him...
and i tried to wear cons today...
its kinda uncomfortable...
duno why..
and still uneasy to put it in..
hope to do it in 5 mins for both eye next time ^^
and in lowyat eyes keep blink..
in lowyat i saw a primary school friend o...
just felt weird waving at her..
duno she recognise me anot~~
mostly is yes de..
and then i went to 3rd floor to find the mouse...
and saw rong han there working...
really kinda unexpected...
and i bought her microsoft brand de mouse..
quite good to use de...
but its rm 39
a little ex lo..
haha ~~
but most important is quality...
hehe~~
and at night...
my family and i went to a restaurant nearby
and the service kinda slow..
maybe cos not enough chef to cook gua...
and the food always gets mixed up de..
after i finished there
on the way to my sis's car i saw huey qi...
lolz..
today bum into friends unexpectedly..
haha ~~
but its a good day in the end
hehe ~~
in the end,
give min catch dao i send de msg ><
haiz....
but its ok..
i wont tell it for now
blek ~~

lately i wanting to change my handphone very desperately
now thinking of c902 and w960
miin said c902 cheaper...and nicer..
i still struggling..
see 1st ba
i guess..
no need to rush
since i don hv that kind of money for now
still need to decide..
any suggestion?
please give it
kinda need it o ~~
hehe

今天~~

好久没用华语写了~
有点生疏了~
昨天和今天我都在做些wan gat 的东西
就觉得在他们的面前我可以怎样都好
虽然有些时候，他们真的不会理我拉
就感觉很放心哦~
就感觉什么都可以放心的在他们的面前做就对了
哈哈
我已经工作了2星期了哦
满轻松的~
不过，最近都在赶工
所以，就比较忙一下
明天呢
我还有工作哦~
本来是没有的
然后，老板娘问我明天要不要做
我就说考虑一下~
然后，我就打电话去问下
是几点做到几点
他见了几点后，我就oh了一下
然后她就继续讲
然后就收线了
根本就没有机会讲
之后，就回家去了
然后，豪叫我去吃steamboat
不过，我讲很饱
可是，1小时候
馨问我，我就去
然后他们就想歪了
haiz....
他们一直都在撮合我跟她
都不懂为什么
哈哈
然后我又来wan gat了
因为那两姐妹要喝糖水
我就提议
一个有点远的地方
不过，他的糖水满特别的
因为有一样叫蛋茶这东西
我还蛮喜欢的
最后，我们都没有去了
因为有点晚了
哈哈~

突然想起，在Czuo生日那天
我在xian的家bbq ing
刚好我的电脑那是坏了
就借用xian的电脑
然后在msn和Czuo聊了起来
我记得他讲我的一段话
you are a self pity, forgetful, doubtful person
他的这句话
真得让我觉得
原来我在她眼里是个这样的一个人
这些东西我都承认
因为连我自己也知道
这些都是我的缺点阿~
所以，我也在为这些烦恼中
因为我想把他们都改掉~
我相信可以的~

Ps:今天我到楼下帮忙时，看到了她，我想叫住她，却欲叫无声
而且她也在她的blog里这样写道~
我要等还是放弃呢？
我自己也不懂也~

我要睡了
晚安哦~
Oyasumi~~

blek~~

wuwu~~
today is the 2nd day of my new work o...
i work as "da zhap" in an office near my father's shop o
cos doing some data entry and some hard work lo ...
hehe~~
today morning ...
i need open some ring for a catalog...
erm how to explain a...
like yellow pages but only one hole hanging those pages together lo..
and those ring hard to open dao ~~>..
my thumb very pain open dao ><
maybe u can say i am weak ba ~~
cos i open 15 continously
then left 5 cant open le...
that time my hand really like numb liao...
so tell the person who gave me the work de...
cant open lo..
and the rest use rubber ban to tie them up ^^
then after lunch ~~
i come back using photoshop to cut some pictures again ~~
but this time its simple then yesterday's ...
so i finish it in 1 hour...
but when i am doing my last photo...
my boss went out so...
now waiting him back lo...
need to pass my 'work' to him ...
haha ~~
so i doing nth till now...
writing this blog...
cos even the hard work there also enough ppl jor...
omg...
maybe later try dl msn ^^
hehe~~
see 1st ba ^^
and i wanna thanks those who helped in o ~~

ps: yingar not my "sheep" lo...
just friends now ....
dun think too much la ....
blek ~~

have a nice day everyone ^^

bad omen ><

yeasterday really not my day ~~
morning felt ok ~~
everything went ok ~~
but till night...
i started to haven a feeling that i dun wanna be at home ...
then i called hao and fai to go out...
just to drive me out...
actually i just wanna be outside and do nothing ...
still we yam cha at steven's corner..
then go cc...for 2 hours...
after that go outside 2 of them chatting on the phone..
and i not really sure what to do next..
first i said go home..
but the 2 of them like dun wanna go home..
keep saying ok de...
but in the end, we went inside cc again..
but this time..
its a little different...
after playing one hour i only felt that my wallet is not in my pocket..
haiz..
then ask for the cc tv in the cc...
but its no use..
cos the cc tv there is for the bos to see his staff in his house..
and now my wallet is gone..
including my ic and license...
sienz dao...
we went to report lo ~~
after that we search 1 more round around the area..
then went home le...
i arrive home around 4 am...
and i only slept 4 hours...
then give my sis kacau me up to go dbkl to pay for the lisence things...
used up alot of time..
and back shop there..
i went to cut my hair..
haiz...
told the person
i only wan side short and top wan nipis de..
but after he cut,
its just the same shape as i always cut de...
really wanna change place to cut my hair jor ><
wanna change hairstyle ><
dun 1 always this type of hair style a ><
and tomolo need go remake my ic and license(maybe only ic)
haiz...
really tiring lo...
felt like no time to find work...
and i think i will be going back school on friday ~~
if those interested can com along de ..
haha ~~

Finally~~

i quit my current job le ~~
really kinda unpleasent leaving there..
starting to get use to everyone there..
but its my decision
cos really tiring
even though i have ad used to it..
but still very tiring de...
haha ~~
and i got my half month de salary le ~~
wuwu..
but most of it going to be used soon...
cos a lot of thing need to buy and change...
haha ~~
see how how 1st ba ~~

duno wat to write jor...
haha ~~
tmr only write a longer 1 ba ~~

song...

lately i am addicted to this song o ~~

taylor swift - you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh

You're not sorry no no ohhh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

You're not sorry, no no ohhh

quite nice de...
and felt kinda like she saying those to me ~~
just felt like that lo～～
really long time didnt find her le..
duno how she's doing...
hope she is doing fine ^^
haha ~~
got little flu le ><
tmr still need to work haiz...